I still can remember this day so very clearly and will never ever forget it. The day was over and my husband and I went to bed. I was lying there thinking and hoping that after the millionth time (14 months to be exact) we would actually conceive our first baby. It had been quite a long, hard, frustrating 14 months.
We fell asleep and the phone rang. We ignored it initially,seeing it was around 11pm. They it rang again and I thought who the hell would keep calling. It was my brother-in-law. What came next would change our lives forever.
My father-in-law was out of town on business. He was due to come home the next day. He had died! Not from a heart attack or even a car accident. It was worse in my opinion. He had choked. He had walk out of the restaurant, where no one could help him. I’m sure because he didn’t want to be embarrassed and assumed he could cough it up on his own.
I was devastating. I have been with my husband pretty much since I was 13 and I was closer to his father than to my own. I can see my husband’s despair and deep sadness as if happened yesterday.
I can remember after the calling hours I called my sister sobbing. “I didn’t want it to happen this way. It’s not fair!!!” “What do you mean?” she asked. I knew I was pregnant, I could just feel it. I had a dream with my father-in-law in it. We were sitting at the kitchen table and he was holding and patting my hand. With no words spoken I could feel him saying everything was going to be okay.
And just a few short weeks later, we found out I was very much correct. As one life ended another one began, to the exact day. As my father-in-law was passing, our sweet little baby was conceived. What a whirlwind of emotions.
Nine months later, our sweet little baby BOY was born. Amazing! What is even more unbelievable is that though our son looks a lot like her father, he looks even more like his grandpa. I’m not kidding. My husband and I have dark brown hair and eyes. Our son has a lighter shade of brown hair, blue eyes just like his grandpa, his body shape and I swear his feet. I have never had trouble conceiving again. I deeply miss my father-in-law and truly wish he was here today. To be with us, my mother-in-law, and to see the only grandchildren he never got a chance to meet. But I thank him every day for giving me the very best gift ever, the true miracle of life!!!
On a lighter more funny note. I can remember way back to when I was 13 or 14. Several friends and I were just getting to my house after a long walk from another friend’s home. We walked everywhere back then. Well, we were all in for one hell of a surprise. I opened the door to see my mom and her boyfriend, let’s just say being naughty, on my living room floor. Holy sh**! I told all of my friends to run up my stairs and don’t look into the room. OH MY GOODNESS!!! That’s just not possible. I was in shock!! My mom was embarrassed but so was I. She tried coming up and apologizing/expaining but it just made it worse. Believe it or not I still have dinner with the same friends once a month. And every once in awhile it gets brought up and we all laugh even more now!